30. Depression Isn't Always Obvious in Midlife

What if I told you that depression doesn't always look the way we think it does?

Sometimes it doesn't look like falling apart.
 Sometimes it looks like showing up.

Going to work.
 Taking care of your family.
 Meeting deadlines.
 Keeping all the balls in the air.

And yet, somewhere along the way, you stop feeling like yourself.

In this week's episode of Her Next Chapter, I'm sharing a very personal part of my story and opening up about my own experience with depression.

There was a season in my life when I was doing all the things—a working mom, a wife, a friend, a professional—and from the outside everything looked fine. But on the inside, I felt disconnected, exhausted, and lost. I wasn't falling apart. I was just existing.

If you've ever found yourself wondering why you feel so flat, unmotivated, or emotionally checked out despite having so much to be grateful for, this conversation is for you.

Together we'll talk about the quiet signs of depression, why so many women minimize their pain, and why healing begins the moment we stop pretending we're okay and start being honest about what we're carrying.

In this episode, we'll chat about:

✨ What depression can really look like in high-achieving women

✨ Why "I'm fine" isn't always the full story

✨ The difference between surviving and truly living

✨ How burnout, emotional exhaustion, and depression can overlap

✨ Why honoring your pain is the first step toward healing

✨ Practical ways to reconnect with yourself and your emotional well-being

Most importantly, I want you to know this:

You don't have to earn support.
 You don't have to wait until things get worse.
 And you don't have to carry everything by yourself.

💛 If this episode resonates with you and you're ready to do the deeper work of healing burnout, rebuilding self-trust, and creating a life that feels peaceful and aligned, I'd love to support you. Check out the show notes below to learn more about working with me privately.

And please share this episode with a friend. Chances are, someone you love is carrying more than they're letting on.

A Gentle Reminder

Today's conversation touches on depression and emotional health. Please take care of yourself as you listen.

If you are experiencing a mental health crisis or need immediate support, please contact emergency services, a crisis hotline, or a qualified mental health professional in your area.

You matter, and help is available. 💛

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Transcript

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Have you ever looked around at your life and thought, everything is technically fine, so why don't I feel happy? Welcome to our next chapter. Today we're talking about something that doesn't get discussed nearly enough. Depression in midlife. Not the kind we see in the movies, not the kind where someone doesn't get out of bed. I'm talking about the kind that hides behind productivity, responsibility, and a little smile. As a therapist for over 25 years, I've worked with countless women who didn't realize they were struggling because they were still functioning. Now, before I get started here, I want to take a moment to acknowledge that today's topic is a bit heavier. We're going to be talking about depression, emotional pain, and some of the ways that these struggles can show up in our lives. Please be gentle with yourself as you listen. Take what serves you, pause if you need to, and remember that seeking support is a sign of strength, not weakness. And if you're experiencing a mental health crisis or feel that you need immediate help, please contact a mental health professional, your health provider, or an emergency service right away. Okay, friend, let's jump in. Many years ago, I found myself caught in the middle of a life that looked really good on paper. I was a working mom, a committed wife, a loyal friend, I was successful. And from the outside, everything seemed fine. I'm sure many of you can maybe relate to this. And little by little, I felt less and less like myself. Now, friend, this didn't happen overnight. It wasn't a dramatic moment where I woke up one day and couldn't get out of bed. It was more like a slow leak in a tire. At first, you barely noticed it. The car still moves forward, everything appears to be working. Mile by mile, you lose a little bit more air, a little bit more energy, a little bit more joy, and a little bit more of yourself. And before I knew it, my emotional world felt flat, numb. And I'd really struggled to connect with my feelings, what I felt, how I was functioning in the day, not necessarily from a standpoint of productivity, but just how I was showing up emotionally and genuinely in my life. Things that brought me joy or sparked curiosity started to lose their shine, their luster. I wasn't excited about much of anything. I felt lost a lot of the times. And perhaps the hardest part was that no one really knew because from the outside everything seemed the same. I wasn't lying in bed all day. My children were still being cared for. Those are some red flags that even though it's a good time, it's still too much. So that's sometimes how it shows up. It also shows up with some irritability, maybe. Suddenly everything is too much, too much noise, the questions they're asking, of the driving, everything becomes a little bit too nails on the chalkboard. Um and then uh maybe some lack of motivation. Things lose their luster. My morning walks have been an anchor for me in my emotional health for over a decade. So when I lose the motivation for that, for me is a red flag of like, okay, I'm losing some motivation on things that usually bring me joy, usually I'm very interested in. So that gives me a little insight on what's going on with myself. What are some feelings that I need to acknowledge? It can also look like disconnected from things that bring you joy and happiness. So maybe you are still doing all the things, you're still going to the brunch, you're still going to spend time with your kids, you're going to the park, you're doing the vacations, but you can't really access those feelings. Now, the second point I want to bring up is that high-achieving women often miss the signs because for a lot of us, we assume that feeling this way is due to feeling tired, having a lot of stress, maybe we just need a vacation, maybe we're just a little burnt out. What it really comes down to is we've been taught that these patterns, especially for women, are just us being women, right? And we just need to push through, we just need to endure. And it's just you being a woman, you're just being emotional, you're just being high maintenance. And I think that is why we ignore them and we don't acknowledge them because we just think, oh, everybody feels this way. And we live in the system, right, where it is normal to feel this way. And I guess I just want to be part of breaking the narrative that this is normal for us, that this is what it should look like. I want to be part of a system where we honor it because we we deserve some grace and honor, but we also let women know that it's okay for us to want some support, for us to want to feel happier, want to have more uh joy and not feel so emotionally depleted, and that this is this shouldn't be normal, right? This shouldn't be just life because you're a woman. I think a lot of times we miss these signs because it's just been part of our story, of our narrative, and bringing some awareness of that can help us ask for help. The last point I want to bring up is that healing begins when we start minimizing the pain. You know, as a Mexican-American woman who grew up poor and daughter of immigrant parents, I didn't have the luxury as a kid to feel anxious or depressed. And not because my parents told me not to feel that way, but just because I knew as a kid that there was just bigger fish to fry here. My parents were trying to survive. They were trying to provide food for us, they were trying to make it in a world where they didn't speak the language, where there was a lot of, and I knew I didn't know exactly. I, you know, I couldn't put words to it as a kid, but there was a feeling, right? Of like, we just have to survive. I didn't grow up in a home where those feelings were necessarily acknowledged and openly talked about. We just had to work hard. That that was my the main message: work hard and be successful. And in talking to many of my clients, even if their story is different than mine from a cultural perspective, I often hear women say to me, Oh, but others have it worse. I should be grateful. Um, I don't really have a reason to feel this way. A lot of my clients have really good families, they have good businesses, they're successful, and they're like, oh, I should just be really grateful that I have all this. But healing starts when we acknowledge our experience, our feelings, our emotions. And it's not about whose pain is worse. It's just about learning to honor yourself and your emotions. And I think that my goal when I work with someone is to help them acknowledge their emotions, acknowledge their pain, understand them, and be able to navigate them with a lot more confidence so that they can learn to thrive within them. Right. And so today, today's message is I want to encourage you to ask yourself, what have I been pretending that doesn't hurt? Because you deserve more than survival mode. You deserve to thrive, you deserve to be acknowledged, and you deserve to have the support that you need. So if you're tired of carrying everything alone and you're ready to feel more like yourself, I just want to invite you. I currently have space for some private mentoring clients. So together we can work to uncover what's keeping you stuck and create a plan to help you move forward with confidence and acceptance and honoring what you're going through. And again, always my friend, I want to encourage you that if this episode spoke to you, be gentle with yourself, listen to yourself, and remember you matter. Till next time.